I understand that many people were offended by my previous journal entry, and I must admit, I was feeling a bit angsty and depressed at that point, so this may have effected this angle I took things. I also realise that many people commented with either angry, upset or confused interpretations of that particular entry. And for this reason and many others more, I am terribly sorry.

I have read all the comments, and took in what people have said, re-read them but some of which have not replied. This is because I wish that people forget that the journal entry was never there, and can eventually forgive me for the incorrect opinions included in which. I have deleted it with a great swell of regret, and hopefully no one shall ever find it again.

Let's just say... That I have learnt my lesson the hard way. I've seen what those sharp words did, and felt incredibly bad for it afterwards. I didn't set out, intending to make someone's day bad, or make sure that someone got sad by the end of it, but looking back at it now... It could seem like I did.

I apologise to Phoebe, who is a very understanding friend who has the ability to express her feelings beautifully through art.

I apologise to Phoebe Roberts, who's a very witty and wonderful friend, and "hate" is hardly the word to describe how I feel towards her.

I apologise to Lil, whom if she is reading this will surely recognise that she's the most pretty, funny and confident girl I have ever met.

I apologise to Emily, as she wears a smile even through the toughest of times and is the best shoulder to cry on or spill out some feelings when you feel bad.

I apologise to Zoe, the brightest, most funny, kind and amazing individual I'll ever come across. I was jealous, and envy is one of my worst traits so I hope you can understand that I am sincerely sorry for my actions. I spent a long time regretting what I'd done to make you feel so bad that you cancelled one of the best party plans I had ever heard. It was something I said in the moment of things, and it came out all wrong and messy. I really love you as a friend, and would never want to lose you. You've been there for me, even when I couldn't be there for you.

I apologise to those who I remarked curtly" No problems at all", which could, in fact, upset the remainder that I had not included; they may have concluded that I had a problem with them.

Look, I've thought long and hard over this predicament I got myself into... A sticky jar of marmalade that I just managed to scramble out of, sticky hands and sweaty face.

Thank you, my good people, and goodnight.
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*Renardette